Cosima's Diaries

Diary Entry of January 2, 1869

Overview

A brilliant morning is shadowed by Eva's illness, though the child soon improves and Richard remains cheerful despite slight indisposition. Cosima takes comfort in Richard's work on his essay, their conversation, and his guidance that philosophy should reach her through poetry and a beloved man. The evening turns serene with the children restored and Homer read aloud, leaving her with a feeling of intimate happiness.

Content

Saturday, January 2:

Cheered on opening my eyes by the sight of a rosy sky; the foehn had conjured up its most brilliant colors for the morning display of light. Soon afterward I was told that Evchen was ill; she had had a bad night. Concern, but no anxiety, for she was cheerful. Richard slightly indisposed but in good spirits.

We visit the child; I stay upstairs while he goes to his work, the essay on the Jews. At eleven I go to say goodbye before my walk with Loldi and can report that Evchen is well, if still a bit run down. Before lunch he reads me the continuation. Great delight in its terseness and pithiness. Our conversation at table arises from this.

After the meal a feeling of intense happiness at having found each other. Later, in connection with the biography, I ask him whether I should read Schopenhauer. He advises me against it: a woman should approach philosophy through a man, a poet. I am in complete agreement. He goes for his walk, I to sleep with Musäus in my hand.

In the evening to the children, Eva very lively, a great load off my mind. The children to bed, 7 o’clock, then supper. Richard has no inclination to dictate; we decide to read a book. Plato? Not yet bound. Wallenstein? Read it again only a short time ago. Calderón? Too emotional. So Shakespeare’s histories or the Odyssey. We decide on the last. Most wonderful impression, a sublimely intimate evening, indelible images stamped on my mind. Untroubled sleep.