Cosima's Diaries

Diary Entry of January 31, 1878

Overview

After a disturbed night and brief headache, Richard completes the ink sketch of the first act’s conclusion and the couple spend the evening immersed in grateful memories of Tribschen and their family life. Yet once alone, the diarist’s fear returns, centered on his painful foot and the digestive troubles it causes.

Content

Thursday, January 31:

R. had a somewhat disturbed night. He awakes with a headache, but it subsides; he works, and in the evening he shows me the ink sketch of the conclusion of the first act. Now thank we all our God is my prayer!

We spend the evening in reminiscences of Tribschen, my joining him there, the subsequent arrival of the two elder children, Fidi's birth, lost in blissful thoughts. Only when I am alone does my apprehension return; R.'s foot prevents his taking walks, and that in turn upsets his digestive processes. He tells me it is nothing, that on the whole he feels very well, but how, once beset by it, can one banish worry?