Wagner's Letters

Richard Wagner to August Rockel

June 8, 1853 · Zurich

Overview

Wagner tells Röckel that his fame is growing amid pamphlets and articles that mix ignorance and admiration, but he feels indifferent because his writings and deepest views remain misunderstood. His consolation is that some people love him beyond criticism, though this love remains distant from his actual life, leaving resignation as the way to preserve his integrity.

Letter

My fame is constantly growing; I am regarded as an unheard-of and quite unclassifiable phenomenon; pamphlets and newspaper articles are being written about me wholesale; ignorance and admiration grow heated about me and the whole thing leaves me indescribably indifferent. It would be impossible for me to write a word for the papers, so disgusted am I by the hopeless misunderstanding of my writings, while the very essence of my being and my views of life are still almost totally uncomprehended. I may take comfort from one thing, however. I am not only admired, but loved as well. Where criticism ends, love begins and has brought many a heart near to me. Yet this love must always be a far-away thing; it only touches my life very indirectly, and in the circumstances of that life as it is at present I can only gaze upon this kingdom of love from a vast distance. If I could only become a regular egotist I should do better, but things must be as they may and, like you, it is through resignation alone that I can at least maintain the integrity of my nature.

Richard Wagner

Source: Letters of Richard Wagner, Volume 1, ed. Altmann/Hull (London: Dent, 1927), No. 243