It is a load on my mind, that I fell upon you so ungovernably with my laments the other day. If you can forgive me, it will be harder for Otto to, and that agitates my heart ! — Something would appear to have " got into my bones " — as people say ; I fell ill, and was so for a week. — That did me good, and I have come to order in myself; so it only remains to get so with myself as well. Toward that I have an extremely arduous time next ahead of me, toils and hardships of all kinds ; but they will be the last. — In October I shall visit you in any case. Entreat me kindly, precious friends ; I hope I shall be welcome to you ! From my heart, R. W. Penzing. Sept. 20, 63.*
Richard Wagner
Source: Richard Wagner to Mathilde Wesendonck, translated by Ellis, No. 141